Priyatam Mudivarti

Life, A Journey

I ded­i­cate this to two men I admire: Mike Mag­nu­son and my uncle, Sudar­shan Rao Dut­taluri; the first I admired — my father, he died ten years ago.

In an inter­view from this mag­a­zine, Rah­man says,

Some­times you have to go against your grain for a greater expe­ri­ence,
to expe­ri­ence life bet­ter than be bound by the lim­its of your personality.

Rah­man is a sufi, he’s always been spir­i­tual, about life, about music. He was the rea­son I under­stood sound­scapes and har­monies. I bought his first cas­sette out­side a rainy stu­dio in 1992. There was a sweet shop next to it, lit­tle yel­low balls of jag­gery that I now miss eat­ing, liv­ing in another coun­try. I bought all his music, recorded his CDs. I had no money. The cas­settes lay behind my bed stacked like domi­noes, each labeled by hand.

Later, Rah­man explains in a Q&A,

You should let go of your­self when you cre­ate some­thing new and not sit in your box and let some­thing good pass by. You grow only if you take the risk of adapt­ing and dis­cov­er­ing. That way, you can have a longer journey.

When I posted this on my face­book — and I rarely do — my uncle hit a long reply.

I had stared at mon­i­tors before.

In this trans­la­tion, as I re-write, it is still his thoughts that linger:

Out­side world is endless.

It doesn’t mat­ter how long is your jour­ney. More is inside than out­ward. If we look inward, I must say, we will find every­thing. Risks and jour­neys and every greater expe­ri­ence can alter your path and as such there’s no def­i­nite per­son­al­ity. Per­son­al­ity is dynamic. New expe­ri­ences are a must and to keep this per­son­al­ity unchanged (like keep­ing our face same every morn­ing), the cells that die in your face dur­ing day must make new faces at night, every sec­ond. You must tra­verse the path of high risk and live new expe­ri­ences and keep look­ing deeper, blindly, only then, you will have a point to reach.

It is inside where you must access truth and mem­o­ries. It is here you reach to a point of no end or goal. Inside is where it all begins.